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52 Weeks Project | Week 7 | Hansei

 

Hansei is the Japanese word and expression for self reflection. To acknowledge one's mistakes and pledge for improvement one way or another. And especially when you are running a business of any kind, this sort of self reflection for self improvement has to happen from time to time at varying degrees. And these night time city views over downtown Indianapolis sent me to that mental state. 

 

I was in town for an engagement shoot and afterward I grabbed some dinner, scoured over google maps for a rooftop parking garage to get some awesome views of the city, parked up, and took some self portraits to reflect the time, place, mood, and everything that was happening for me. And it got me thinking about that 17 year old girl I once was with a dream and a strong spirit to chase after it. 

I'll probably dedicate an entire week's photo to that very thing - maybe even write a letter to that girl - but for now, this is me peering into a city I had never been to before for work for a job that I created for myself as a creative entrepreneur. I've been full time now for a little over a year but have been practicing this photography craft for over a decade now shooting weddings 6 of those years. And during that whole time I now find myself living the dream my relentless soul wished for ever since I was a little kid - to be an artist, in all aspects of the word. To explore, document, and create in all capacities. To help people see the beauty in the world, in themselves, and what they share with others.

To me, that all makes life so much more worth living. 

Below is this week's behind the scenes video diary which kinda turned out more as a quick video snippet/talking rant instead of the how to's for this week. Things are slightly slowing down for the next week so I will attempt making something a little more in depth next week ^.^

 
 

52 Weeks Project| Week 2 | Wake the Warrior

 

"She needed a hero. So that's what she became."

Do not kill if you can wound. 
Do not wound if you can subdue.
And don't raise your hand at all
until you at first extended it. 

Nestled beneath the surface, a fire burns. A fire burning so deep,
the walls of kingdoms rumble. A fighter is ignited and the danger surrounding is no longer, for I became it. A danger to all that is
unjust, evil, and dark against this world. 

 

 

BEHIND THE SCENES

This week's image is all about unlocking your inner warrior. And embracing being that warrior. To take a stand on what you believe in and follow through with it whole-heartedly.

Being a warrior doesn't just mean fighting with your fists and physical strength, but with your mind, ideology, and mentality. That embracing your inner strength comes before any outer strength can be recognized. And making a decision on where you stand and what you are willing to fight for. 

We all have a warrior inside of us. Do you know how to unlock yours? 

Here is this weeks behind the scenes video if you want to see how this image was photographed, edited, and created.

And a few more outtakes that were considered as the final image: 

 
 

52 Weeks Project | Week 1 | A Call for Adventure

“Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer.” 
― Joseph Campbell

This week kicks off the start to my new 52 weeks project! If you are unfamiliar with what that is, it's where you take one photo every week for a whole year centered around some sort of theme. And my theme is going to be self portraiture. 

This week’s photo is actually inspired by a man named Joseph Campbell. He said that mythology and almost all story telling in general follows a basic formula he calls “The Hero’s Journey”. Which involves a hero who goes on an adventure, and in a decisive crisis wins a victory, and then comes home changed or transformed.

And although I’m not jumping on my white horse, sword in hand, ready to go out into the night and fight the evils of the world, I do hope to use this little project of mine to embrace some inner reflection and go on my own personal ‘hero’s journey’. After going through the darkest period of my life, I need to redefine myself and figure out all that I am, was, and want to be. So, my hope, at the very least, will be to create some space for myself each week to make some new art and reflect on different pieces of me to do this very thing.

Also, kind of random, but I hope to create a behind the scenes video each week during this project. And so, here is this weeks and my process for making this photo.