Hansei is the Japanese word and expression for self reflection. To acknowledge one's mistakes and pledge for improvement one way or another. And especially when you are running a business of any kind, this sort of self reflection for self improvement has to happen from time to time at varying degrees. And these night time city views over downtown Indianapolis sent me to that mental state.
I was in town for an engagement shoot and afterward I grabbed some dinner, scoured over google maps for a rooftop parking garage to get some awesome views of the city, parked up, and took some self portraits to reflect the time, place, mood, and everything that was happening for me. And it got me thinking about that 17 year old girl I once was with a dream and a strong spirit to chase after it.
I'll probably dedicate an entire week's photo to that very thing - maybe even write a letter to that girl - but for now, this is me peering into a city I had never been to before for work for a job that I created for myself as a creative entrepreneur. I've been full time now for a little over a year but have been practicing this photography craft for over a decade now shooting weddings 6 of those years. And during that whole time I now find myself living the dream my relentless soul wished for ever since I was a little kid - to be an artist, in all aspects of the word. To explore, document, and create in all capacities. To help people see the beauty in the world, in themselves, and what they share with others.
To me, that all makes life so much more worth living.
Below is this week's behind the scenes video diary which kinda turned out more as a quick video snippet/talking rant instead of the how to's for this week. Things are slightly slowing down for the next week so I will attempt making something a little more in depth next week ^.^
Meghan and Andy tied the knot back in April in the beautiful St Mary's church in Hyde Park. The day was a little chilly, but their love for each other made everybody forget about it! And it was amazing to witness it.
There are some weddings I go to where there is more genuine laughter, hugs, and love than others and this was one of them. Their authentic souls made even me feel completely welcome and that's my absolute favorite. These candids are real moments that unfold the story of their day and tell it all in a way I'm happy to present.
Press play and enjoy <3
Happy Birthday America !
Regardless of where you find yourself on the political spectrum, where your beliefs take you, how you live your life in this country, and no matter the realities of how imperfect this country is, what it's done, and everything it may do... we cannot deny the fact and privilege we all have being residents of this country. No matter where you may also fall on the social spectrum.
We have the right to speak out against things that are evil, unjust, and wrong. And then to follow through and fight it. As a woman, I have the freedom to dream and to be as much as I want to be and then to follow through with my dreams with as much ambition as any man, which is a basic right denied to many women in a lot of places of the world still.
All Americans have basic rights that are protected in a way unlike any other. And have founding principles that are beautiful in all their meaning, regardless of how history embraced them and how some people may also still choose to categorize it.
This country is far from perfect, but the basic ideology that formed this country has driven some of the most life changing inventions and overall growth as a species. And that is something to be incredibly proud of.
I kept things super simple for this week since I'm in need of major editing time with client work, shooting 3 weddings, and a couple photoshoots. If you recognize this field, it's actually the one I used for my bridal shoot back in May. See those photos here.
And of course below you will find the behind the scenes video for this week! And I even added a few clips from my little backyard 4th of July :)